You were august.

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In which, at first—on my denial, I’d say that I don’t know how and why you’re that. But I know, I undeniably and perfectly know.

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I know that it was because of how you could easily annoy me with your random remarks and sudden rebuttals.

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I know that it was because you have this way of pestering me to death and you won’t really just leave me alone no matter how pissed I am.

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I know that it was because you showed up in the midst of my chaos—the midst of battling my inner demons when I needed someone. Oddly enough, there was something in you that washes away my worries.

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I know that it was because you’re good at your words in a sense that it either amazes me or challenges me.

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I know that it was because I could sense how you’re trying, even weighing, if you’d be a gentleman that you are or you’d let me be because I was and always have been independent and self-reliant.

 

I know that it was because you let me have my time to adjust and prepare myself because you knew I was overwhelmed.

 

I know that it was because you were trying even when I know it was also hard for you,

 

I know that it was because we share almost the same grounds to who and what we are now.

 

I know that it was because you made me feel safe and validated as I try to open up about my past. You knew it was hard, you knew that there are triggers and consequences, but to you it felt lighter and calmer.

 

I know that it was because you made me experience for the very first time what it feels like to be out of everyone’s sight, to create a world of our own and be so ingested that I could care less of the things around me.

 

I know that it was because you were the first one who made me stay out until ungodly hours that might get me in trouble

 

I know that it was because I found comfort with your quirks and how our minds think alike.

 

I know that it was because of how you always come up with the most random things we could talk about

 

I know that it was because your commentaries on certain subjects amuses me, and how you could easily get my point when no one else does.

 

I know that it was because you, out of all people, made me do things out of the ordinary.

 

I know that it was because we both know that we’re two lost souls who needed solitude in this noisy world.

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I know that it was because we could care less of how people view us in any manner as we took our time.

 

I know that it was because you know what you stand for and when to act on it. You are driven and motivated, and it’s amicable.

 

I know that it was because you never dared to make advances on me, you never made me feel that I should be cautious and awkward on things, and being with you is nothing but solace.

 

I know that it was because I admired you entirely for who you are. With flaws and all.

 

And I know that it was because I wished that I could’ve known you sooner, but much to my  gratitude that I get to know you in the moment of my life where I’m changing and growing for the better.

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You inspire me in a way that only you could do on your own.

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You have seen and understand me in a way that I never knew someone would.

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You made me see things differently in this life without needing to shove your opinions on me.

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You made me feel things that scares and calms me all at once.

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You made me welcome a new day, a new month, a new chapter, a new August with a heart at ease.

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You are my august, but you were not and never mine.